Make no mistake about it—enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the facade of pretense. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.—Adyashanti
One of my spiritual mentors refers to this process as egoic dissolution.
I experience it as letting go of false identities - false meaning all those roles taken on that were created and/or agreed to from fear-based thinking… as in pretending we’re not divine, pushing the LIGHT we are out, denying the truth of who and what we are to be fully present and to live accordingly.
I don’t know about you but it’s unsettling to say the least when what you thought you were or what you believed to be truth crumbles…
And then there’s the JOY of rediscovering what’s been there all along yet may not have been fully acknowledged or claimed by you before… that spark of divinity that resides within each of us.
And seeing, experiencing, perceiving everything in your life as new… as if it’s the first time…
Whenever I’ve released yet another false identity, as in discovered another area or aspect of my life where I’ve denied my LIGHT to fully BE… it’s often been preceded by an inner tug of war.
- That identity fighting for its survival.
- Out of fear of not knowing what awaits me if I truly let go…and it’ll chime in with worst case scenarios all based on past experiences or observations…
- Thereby triggering more fear and shutting off seeing possibilities beyond the fear, beyond the past.
Fear isn’t the brightest advisor!
Yet ever so effective at hypnotising those identities we’ve taken on, created from fear-based thinking… and believed to be truth of who and what we are.
The last few years have been a massive shedding process for me.
Not to mention all the years prior to that, which got turned up a few notches when I left my airline career in 2008…
- It’s required me to call on my inner reSOURCEfullness in ways I didn’t realise I was capable of.
- It’s been, and continues to be an intense upleveling of training my trust and faith muscles.
- It’s been scary as fu@k at times and I’ve felt the full spectrum of emotions that accompany us on this human journey.
I’ve wanted to quit, hide, escape.
I’ve felt frustrated, furious, sad beyond description, terrified, abandoned, helpless…
And as the walls and barriers around my heart crumble, crack and dissolve as I keep recommitting to allowing the LIGHT I am into EVERY part of me and my life, I am experiencing what I can’t quite articulate yet… other than a renewed lightness of BEing.
And the thing that makes me laugh out loud, usually after one of these sheddings - as it doesn’t feel so fun when I’m the midst of it - is that I held on so tight to what I thought was truth yet is now clearly seen for what it was:
Oh my… the title for my next book landed quite a few years ago…it’s been brewing…
Perhaps now it’s time to write it...
LIGHTen the F@ck UP
And there’s a fun story behind how that title landed.
You'll have to read the book when it's ready!
My infinite gratitude to all those who have assisted me along the way and all those supporting me as I continue to evolve.
We each have a magnificent frequency, a soul sound… that just like a musical instrument, requires tuning for optimal resonance.
When we come together to play and collaborate and create with our magic, it’s like a symphony that takes your breath away with its soul stirring beauty.
I truly believe we haven’t even scratched the surface yet of what we can create together as the LIGHT we each are and as it expresses as and through us in our own unique ways.
The LIGHT we are isn’t afraid of fear. Fear is afraid of the LIGHT and will resist allowing it to enter our lives, our world…
As we each allow our LIGHT into those relationships, those conflicts, those areas of ourselves and our lives and the world where fear is rampant… what might happen?
Surround yourself with those who fan your inner flame, who spark your inner light, who UPLIFT you.
End of this transmission.